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2011-01-31T01:43:00.002+08:00

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D-Day

2011-01-26T04:02:00.004+08:00

Really? You really expect me to believe this relationship is important to you? What thing have you done to prove that? When I said I wanted to break up with you, what did you do? NOTHING. Not.A.Sing-fucking-le.Thing. And you still deleted our photos from your profile pictures. You feel damn hurt and sad when I said I want to break up? Didn't you even think this day would be coming, seeing how lousy a girlfriend you are? Seriously. And how the hell do you think I feel when you said I don't show you care and concern?! Think about that for a sec.
Ok, honestly I have a ton more to say, but I don't feel like continuing anymore. I'm too so damn hurt, sad, and bloody disappointed. Hope you do something about it. Ya ok whatever kthxbai.

Crashed down.

2011-01-22T16:16:00.002+08:00

After everything I did for you, after everything I did for our relationship, after this few months, I don't even get a thank you or anything positive. What did I get? I get to know that you think I'm a lousy boyfriend. You are the first one ever to think this way. EVERYONE ELSE thinks AND knows that I love you very very much. I love you and care for you with my whole being, I tolerate all the shit thrown at me, I do all the damn things I can to hold up this relationship. Everything I did I did my very best. I've been such a damn great boyfriend. Right? WRONG. You don't think so. I don't even meet your expectations. I think too highly of myself huh? Really honestly, why don't you take a look at yourself before passing off such remarks. On what capacity do you say such things about me? If you DO do all those things I listed above, then sure, fine, I accept any criticism from you. But honestly, do you? To me, no you don't. To be honest, I totally disagree with whatever you said, maybe that's why I'm feeling like this now. Shouldn't be the other way round? Whatever, I didn't write this post with the intention of finding fault with you.
Some quote from somewhere: You won't know how much you hurt me until you know how much I care. You really don't know how much you hurt me after yesterday. I didn't really want to tell you all this because I'm sure it would cause an adverse mood change. Yes of course, a new beginning... So? Can I just use that to run away from whatever happened and to run away from how I'm really feeling? Guessed it worked, for a while. Now everything just crashed down on me. Put everything negative behind us yeah, but I'm sorry, I always like to look back in life. I can't hide from my true feelings anymore. It's not just about last night, it's about this whole span in time. All the happenings in our relationship, everything that happened. Honestly like I said, I haven't really been feeling good all this while. I seldom am happy by myself, I am only happy whenever you're happy, or rather when I make you happy. Whatever you said about me last night really hurt, I'm floored now. I did my very best in this relationship and yet I don't meet your expectations. What else more can and should I do? I need time to get back up on my feet, I've lost all confidence and I hope you'll help me. Hope you won't say such things anymore, hope you won't think like such anymore, hope you won't hurt me like this again. I am a damn bloody good boyfriend to you, hope you do realise that. A new beginning it is now, let's work together hand in hand for a better relationship. I love you, Baby.

Dearest Charlotte,

2010-03-29T02:49:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry.

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2010-03-05T21:58:00.003+08:00

"I thought you two are so loving..." -Anonymous

HAHA!! Yeah, we WERE loving. At least SHE was loving, I still am though. Oh well. Looking back at everything one can easily see the differenceS at how I'm being treated now.

I came up with a philosophy, here goes:
In a relationship, there's always give and take. However, if there's always too much give and no take, no reciprocation yet with added piles of shit, you will still end up continue giving. Why? It's a compelling force called Love. You try to avoid it, you can't. It's compulsion. And if you're taking and not giving, then you're not loving.

Well, at least this applies for me. Hey, this is MY philosophy ain't it? DUH?!?! Haha..

Anyway, had a really really nice talk with Lui Ting last night.. Bumped into her on the way home and we ended up talking for like 3hours? Haha.. (If you see this, you probably googled ur name again huh? :D) I didn't know we had so much in common, you know what I mean... If you don't know, go use lmgtfy.com.. XD Hahaha!!! Anyway, you please take care and don't think so much.. And REMEMBER, you offer me a drink BEFORE and not after yeah? :D idiot.. Haha..

And anyway, it got me thinking. If someone in a relationship of more than 2years can let it go, why can't I? I'm starting to think you aren't worth so much. I'm not saying you're not worth it or anything, I'm just saying it's something like I'm loving you wayyy too much. I'm doing so much shit for us, and what the hell are you doing over there? A little contradicting to my philosophy up there, but since there're not much returns, yes I do still continue giving, BUT I'll start to hold back alot blabla, ahh you get what I mean.. And probably one day I'll grow tired... Oh well.. Whatever.. You probably dont care anyway..

And yes, I'm starting my attachment this coming Monday, Wincor Nixdorf, for 6weeks.. I hope it'll be 8-5pm.. If not I'll just quit school.. Haha joking!! Hmm, assembling ATMs?? Sounds kinda fun actually.. But dunno what the hell we're actually doing yet.. Heh.. Oh well, I hope someone makes time for me though. I'll have time after my work, it's all up to you. I'm serious, if you aren't gonna do something about your 'cannot go out at night and on weekends' thingy, you aren't gonna see me for 6weeks. And btw, our anniversary is in two weeks' time, so yeah. Just letting you know. (: You wouldn't be reading this anyway.

Okok, I got a last minute date from my best friend, gotta go meet her now!! Bye!! (:

Untitled 12

2010-02-25T21:54:00.002+08:00

Trust me, I feel exactly the same way you do.
But this relationship probably means much much more to me than you, that's why how I'm acting is very much different from the way you are.

I sound so philosophical.. Haiz...

Untitled11

2010-02-01T16:15:00.001+08:00

I don't like.
Many things.

WAHOOOOOO!!!

2010-01-20T21:53:00.001+08:00

You're back!!! (:
I love you so so sooo much Baby.. (:
Muack!!

Untitled10

2010-01-17T22:55:00.000+08:00

Rebuilding the walls of my heart.. (:
I love you Baby..

I'm Sorry..

2010-01-13T22:36:00.000+08:00

I'm really really sorry.. Can you please understand how I feel?

Hoobastank

2010-01-13T20:47:00.001+08:00

I won't let you know the reason.

Untitled 9

2010-01-12T22:26:00.000+08:00

In case you've forgotten, I am your boyfriend.

Untitled 8

2010-01-11T21:23:00.001+08:00

AT LEAST we're talking relatively normally now...

This Isn't You Anymore

2010-01-08T23:04:00.002+08:00

Verse 1

Going down the subway
Walking in circles lost in thought
I stare all around
Trying to pick out a familiar something
That resembles just a hint
Of whatever's left of you

Pre-Chorus

But it is like you existed no more
No one and nothing resembles you
No matter how I tried
I could not get even a glimpse of what you were
I can only see what you've become

Chorus

This isn't you anymore
How could this be
When it is you standing in front of me
This isn't you anymore
You feel like a danger
And I feel like a stranger
This isn't you anymore

Verse 2

All alone at home
The emptiness echoing in my heart
I'm drowning in sorrow
All lost and desolate
I pray from my knees
Trying to get back that girl I know from long ago

Pre-Chorus

But it is like you existed no more
No one and nothing resembles you
No matter how I tried
I could not get even a glimpse of what you were
I can only see what you've become

Chorus

This isn't you anymore
How could this be
When it is you standing in front of me
This isn't you anymore
You feel like a danger
And I feel like a stranger
This isn't you anymore

Verse 3

Looking at our photographs
Chasing the ghosts of the past
Our love frozen in colour
Now appearing dull and grey
I want to turn back time
To the times we spent together
To when we enjoyed each other

Pre-Chorus

But it is like you existed no more
No one and nothing resembles you
No matter how I try
I cannot get even a glimpse of what you were
I can only see what you've become

Chorus

This isn't you anymore
How could this be
When it is you standing in front of me
This isn't you anymore
You feel like a danger
And I feel like a stranger
This isn't you anymore

Bridge

I can't bring myself to tell you
How I really feel
'Cos you don't even know
That you've changed and what you're doing to me now
'Cos you won't understand
The damage you're causing and how hard it is to mend
I'm still looking for the girl I once loved

Chorus

This isn't you anymore
How could this be
When it is you standing in front of me
This isn't you anymore
You feel like a danger
And I feel like a stranger
This isn't you anymore

Verse 4

I've resigned to my fate
That I feel weird on every date
Being unsure if you're still you
That beautiful girl I once knew
But I hate it when your changes show
Walking away is the only way I know

Trying to figure out what you've become
You're gone
This isn't you, Not anymore

Part of another song...

2009-12-31T14:48:00.004+08:00

You're fading away
Slipping through the fingers of my heart
Slowly but surely
Further and further you go
Just a speck in the distance now
You're fading away
I can only stand and watch
Now knowing what to feel
Devastated or blessed

But it's enough of loving a shadow of the past
Slowly fading away
I can't do it anymore
Enough is enough
I can't take it anymore
Two lives isn't easy to live
It's time for the world to know
You're fading away

Part of a song...

2009-12-31T14:43:00.007+08:00

Looking at our photographs
Chasing the ghosts of the past
Our love frozen in colour
Now appearing dull and grey
I want to turn back time
To the times we spent together
To when we enjoyed each other

This isn't you anymore
How could it be
When it is you standing in front of me
This isn't you anymore
You feel like a danger
And I feel like a stranger
This isn't you anymore

I can't bring myself to tell you
How I really feel
'Cos you don't even know
That you've changed and what you're doing to me now
'Cos you won't understand
The damage you're causing and how hard it is to mend
I'm still looking for the girl I once loved

Trying to figure out what you've become
You're gone
This isn't you, Not anymore

Untitled 7

2009-12-30T00:00:00.001+08:00

Showing you concern is a waste of my time.

P.S. I saw you glance down the escalator -_-

A long post, for You.

2009-12-29T00:16:00.003+08:00

I'm pretty sure you don't understand why I was unhappy yesterday. Do you know how f-ed up i felt/feel when I see you like that? Everytime I think of that and remember how you were like, do you know how damn sick and f-ed up I feel? Do you know how painful my heart is? Do you know I can just go and die? That's something like what I feel. And yes, in case you're wondering, that's how I'm feeling now when I'm writing this. Seriously, very fun meh? So what if you win? You want me to give you a prize for that?? -_- Seriously, I do not wish to see you do such damn stupid things anymore kthx, damn dead seriously.

And I'm sorry for raising my voice at you last night. I was, and still am, very upset at what you did. I know you care for me and what not, but for now, I do not care the very least. I told you specifically before, and you still did it. I've already said what I want to say last night. Whatever it is, whether you're sincere and meant it or not, I hope you'll be more mature, think before you do anything and not do something like this again.

Untitled..

2009-12-26T22:50:00.001+08:00

I'm not comparing, I like both of them..
Yeah RIGHT!! -_-

Untitled 6

2009-12-25T00:13:00.007+08:00

Why EVERYTIME I get angry because of LITTLE THINGS??

Heh. -_-

Untitled 5

2009-12-25T00:08:00.002+08:00

Why so sensitive?

This is getting really DAMN irritating.

Untitled 4

2009-12-24T00:54:00.001+08:00

Limited places now?!
This is getting real irritating.

Untitled 3

2009-12-20T03:49:00.001+08:00

Deprivation. Heh.

Untitled 2

2009-12-19T00:16:00.001+08:00

Counterfeit.
Contradicting.
Confused.
I hope I'll get over it.

Untitled

2009-12-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

Do not make a sound.

Hanging by a thread

2009-11-28T22:50:00.001+08:00

I don't even feel like talking to you anymore.

FML

2009-11-27T01:50:00.000+08:00

Seriously man, juz FML again.
Serious.
FML -_-

Fucking Hell!!

2009-11-25T20:02:00.003+08:00

FUCKING HELL.
I HATE TODAY.
KTHXBAI.

Pretty obvious..

2009-11-23T21:28:00.003+08:00

It's pretty obvious you enjoyed your friends' celebration for you more than mine.

It's pretty obvious you don't mind having much lesser time to spend with me.
It's pretty obvious where your priorities are.
It's pretty obvious you don't bother what we become.

Cheers.

And I don't why we're not talking now because of some stupid trivial matter, whatever.

Scene 1 Take 2

2009-11-18T22:26:00.001+08:00

Potential emo day: Saturday, 21 Nov 2009.
Cheers.

Very Good..

2009-11-11T22:30:00.000+08:00

Look, if you do not like, approve or support this relationship, then just shut up and not say
Very good.
a thing ok? Do not go around assuming stuff and making stupid comments about me.
Really very good.
Do NOT judge me, especially when you don't even know A THING about me! WTH?!?! And
Really really very good.
even if you do know me, that still doesn't give you any right to either, so just shut the hell up
Isn't it very good?
ok?!?! And this isn't the first time already, so I hope you'll get a damn life and stop
criticising me.
KTHXBAI

Day 21

2009-11-11T21:54:00.002+08:00

Day 21:

YAYYYY!!! Your O-Levels are finally over!! (: I'm really happy, for you, for myself and for us. Hope you'll get good results, I'm sure you will! (:
Had a GREAT time today!! Had a very nice breakfast with Baby then went to school after some 'drama', haha! Picked her up from school after her paper then sent her home and waited and WAITED!!! XD Then went out, blabla..
Finally we made out again huh? Damn long already.. And it was quite good wasn't it? (: Other than the interuptions again!!! -_- Yeah, I'm sure we bonded huh? (: I love you!! (: Oh, and new records again!! You know I know can already la hor? :D
I love you Hun!! (:
And now, I can finally say... I'VE SURVIVED!! (:

Day 20

2009-11-10T23:10:00.003+08:00

Day 20:

Normal day I guess.. One more day to the end of this period, finally. And I'll be able to say "I survived!" It seriously wasn't easy at all man.
You and your stupid tuition again, two hours become FOUR hours? Right, very good. Make me wait again, luckily it's all gonna end tomorrow.
And I'm really looking forward to seeing you tomorrow!! It's like so long my dear.. And we shall have some 'bonding'!! Soon, soon!! (:
Honestly, I'm DAMN sore about you not being able to come to my house. -_-

Day 19

2009-11-09T23:28:00.002+08:00

Day 19:

A normal day again. Webcam-ed just now, but somehow it was just damn boring. Talking to you on the phone later!
And I'm really looking forward to this Wednesday and Friday!! (:

Day 18

2009-11-08T22:37:00.000+08:00

Day 18:

Today's a great day, normal again. Yup.

Day 17

2009-11-07T23:28:00.002+08:00

Day 17:

Don't EVER break my trust again.
Hope you learnt your lesson well.

Day 16

2009-11-06T22:26:00.000+08:00

Day 16:

You finally apologised.
I shall just forget everything that happened, everything you said and did, just everything. I'll take it as nothing happened.
We shall just start anew, ok?

Day 15

2009-11-05T23:11:00.004+08:00

Day 15:

Quarrel carried over from yesterday, started early morning somemore, right before your paper.
And please don't take me and what I do for you for granted, it's very obvious you are.

And that was some real hurtful stuff you said over there, I don't care if you were just throwing a tantrum or if you were unhapppy or anything, you still shouldn't have said those things!!
Arghhh!! Control, control!!
I really almost asked for a break up ok.
This is getting real bad, real bad.
But I really really love you so much I'm willing to take shit from you.
And it seems that you don't get the point why I'm blogging, apparently in a way about you, but that's ok, I just hope you'll understand one day.
I hope you know I really can't lose you like this or in any other way.
One more thing, the one thing I've been looking forward to this week is gone. No more date tomorrow!! I was hoping we would be able to spend some time together, make up for stuff and bond again. Well, seems there's not even a chance to now. Right.
Fuck O Levels.
(PS. A lot slipped my mind already, there's supposed to be a little more, ah nevermind.)

Day 14

2009-11-04T22:39:00.001+08:00

Day 14:

Quarrelled again last night, real bad.. Now still in the midst of it, cold war and all. Whatever.
This is the first time I really thought of breaking up.
Rest if I must, but never give up!!

Day 13

2009-11-03T23:22:00.002+08:00

Day 13:

Today is a normal day again. It's a normal day.
Just got scolded by my dearest in the morning for skipping class, but that's my very great girlfriend for you. I love you!! (:
Yeah, the day went on as usual, nothing significant.
And I swear your voice is damn nice ok!! Ok, actually it's like, duh?!?! (:
I can't wait to talk to you later B!! (:
I love you very much Hun! (:

Day 12

2009-11-02T23:28:00.001+08:00

Day 12:

Today's a fine day, no abnormalities.
Really happy you're feeling ok already, you got me worried again, as usual.
And I'm really looking forward to our 3 upcoming dates!! (:
And I can't wait to talk to you later!
I love you B!! (:

Day 11

2009-11-01T23:21:00.002+08:00

Day 11:

I'm still tired. Have been almost the whole day today.
I really hope next friday will do us some good. You know I know can already la.
I'm looking forward to friday, quality time hopefully!! 4 more days!!

And you're sick! Please please take care of yourself dearie.
I love you Baby.

Day 10

2009-10-31T22:28:00.001+08:00

Day 10:

I'm growing emotionally tired again... Details to be left out and forgotten.
Lost a great deal of sleep, hence I'm physically tired too. Yup.

Day 9

2009-10-30T22:47:00.000+08:00

Day 9:

Bad, bad, bad.

Day 8

2009-10-29T23:23:00.003+08:00

Day 8:

Today's another of THOSE days, when you don't talk to me much. Not really saying it's your fault, but yeah.
Oh, and Teena's back! Tell you something honestly, I was very happy when she went overseas, gave me some relief from those unnecessarily and ridiculously long tuitions of yours. And today, it starts again!! The usual line, "7plus til LATE". Oh well, there was some argument again because of this, whatever.
Anyway, I'm looking forward to seeing you tomorrow, though it's shortened (-_-) , yeah. Hope we'll make this 2 hours or so quality time together, also considering the fact that you're not gonna see me next week.
kthxbai.

Day 7

2009-10-28T23:29:00.002+08:00

Day 7:

Ok, today's as usual, nothing much happened. One thing, don't know if it's just me or it's really you, but I just feel that you're always not listening/focusing on me whenever I call you before your exams, you can just start talking to someone else when I'm talking halfway, ah whatever.
And you just told me this afternoon that you most probably won't be seeing me next week, I seriously don't really know how to react. Well, I'll just wait and see.
I'm gonna talk to you real soon! But it'll probably be quite short, oh well.
I love you Hun!! (:

Day 6

2009-10-27T23:18:00.000+08:00

Day 6:

Nothing much happened today. normal as usual. Just at night, had a slight argument because of your stupid comments. Other than that, it was ok. And didn't really get to talk to you, 'cos we were conferencing with Kylie, ah nevermind.
I love you B! (:

Day 5

2009-10-26T23:32:00.001+08:00

Day 5:

Today was normal, nothing happened. And I'm really happy you're coming down to SP to meet me on friday again! That's a good change.. (:
Yup, was teaching her maths just now, and I guess I was a little impatient, I'm really sorry dear..
Alright, I'm waiting to talk to you later!! (:
I love you lots Baby! (:

Day 4

2009-10-25T22:45:00.002+08:00

Day 4:

Once again, everything's fine so far. (Mainly because it's the weekend I would say) Yup.

Well, there's one thing. You not going for the SP event. I don't really know what to say, but thank you. Ya, I really don't know what to say.

Anyway, look forward to talking to you later! (:

I love you Baby.

Day 3

2009-10-24T22:31:00.002+08:00

Day 3:

Basically, today is a great day. (: (Something like that)

I'm so in love with you, and I LOVE YOUR SMILE!! (:

Muack! :*

Day 2

2009-10-23T22:17:00.003+08:00

Day 2:

Well, quarrelled again in the morning/early afternoon, brought over from yesterday. But I would say it was a change with you taking time off and coming down to SP to meet me, I commend you for that, other than the black face you gave me initially. And it's quite interesting why you were unhappy, it wasn't even my fault. But it was really nice seeing you, after quite long, and also after our quarrel. Spent about 2hours with you before you had to go, quite a nice time with you. (:

At night, had a good long talk with her. Talked things out, I would say quarrelled mildly, just a little, too? Yup. But basically, we worked things out and I hope there'll be change. I want things to be better. (p.s I never thought that you'll cry after our phone calls, for the same reasons too, we really have chemistry, heh)

Yeah, so I hope everything will be better, ok? (:

I love you Baby.

Day 1

2009-10-22T23:08:00.003+08:00

Day 1:

Oh, so now you finally have some sense and REALISED you've been neglecting me. That's great, real great. So, what you gonna do about it? NOTHING!! So, what's the point of knowing you're neglecting me and not doing anything about it? Why this? Oh, I have my O levels. Why that? Oh, I have my O levels. Ya ya, as I told you, just blame everything on your O levels ok?
Yes yes, I don't know what you're going through. Yes yes, I don't know anything, you know everything best ok? Do YOU even know what I've been doing for you all this while?!?! Do you know sometimes I cry right after we hang up, do you?!?!
Whatever. I don't wish and don't know how to continue.
And I'm getting tired. Please wish me the best in staying alive for the next 3 weeks or so, kthxbai.

Day 0

2009-10-21T23:08:00.002+08:00

Let's start this as Day 0, since I lost track when I started feeling this way. So it's Day 0, one day before O levels start.

Day 0:
You are totally not sensitive of my feelings, in other words I can say you're being selfish.
kthxbai.

Welcome!!!

2009-10-14T22:51:00.001+08:00

I hereby welcome, to my blog, my PARENTS!!
kthxbai. -_-

Fucked Up!!

2009-10-12T13:53:00.004+08:00

Just to let you know in case you don't already do, you've already done stuff that makes me unhappy, and I have already made compromises as much as I can. Ah whatever, you know it yourself la.
And fuck! I really really really hope you're not going for that stupid SP event!! But since you think you're so damn right and nothing I say or do will make you change your decision then so be it lor. You can happily go enjoy yourself and I shall be fucking unhappy the whole day and probably the day before, it will be like this, I fucking swear. And in case you thought I was kidding, I'm fucking serious about you not having to bother texting me for the whole day, 'cos I WILL NOT talk and WON'T FEEL LIKE replying and WON'T HAVE THE MOOD to either.
kthxbai.

Dear God...

2009-08-30T22:22:00.000+08:00

Dear God,

I pray that both our parents will be ok with us being together. I pray that they'll not be unhappy or disallow. I pray that when I tell them it would be easy, that they won't have any adverse reactions. I really pray I'll have my parents' suppport, and of course for her too. If this is your will Lord, I pray that You'll make this work out good for the both of us, for I believe in what You say in Jeremiah 29:11- "For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." I trust in You Lord, and I thank You for whatever the circumstances may be.

In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.

Untitled..

2009-08-15T23:27:00.002+08:00

I NEED SUPPORTIVE PARENTS!!! FUCK!!
I'M ALREADY 18!! FUCK!!
I WANT TO STOP LYING!! FUCK!!

p.s I really hope you'll say yes tomorrow, really.. <33

Can't Think of A Title..

2009-08-09T12:17:00.001+08:00

As happy as I may be right now, somewhere deep down I'm sad. 'Cos you're not going for my birthday party. Ok, let's not start.
Anyway, I'm really really happy today!! Super happy!! Thank you my dearest!! (: and it's just the start!! omg die!! (:

Do you know how much I really want you to go for my birthday party?

2009-08-07T22:44:00.000+08:00

The title is self-explanatory.. ):
but really, really really thank you for celebrating with me today. Thanks dearie! <3 (:

All About You..

2009-07-26T00:48:00.005+08:00

hello everyone!! long tum no see huh? (: okok, was juz thinkin tats its abt time i blogged abt this.. wat thing? dunno, u read on la!! ah nvm, i juz decided not to say.. (: heh.. okok, a lil sth.. i really really was tempted not to leave the beach juz now, serious.. (: ok bye and goodnight! (:

ps. yeah yeah i know the title says all about you, but yet its nothing much. too bad la!! XD you know i know can alr.. cheers! (:

The Wolf.

HELLO CHARLOTTE!!

2009-07-08T21:55:00.006+08:00

hi!! everybody, welcome charlotte here!! whoooo~~ she's the cutest, most adorable, the nicest, my dearest and the hottest!! say hi to her!! (:

Untitled...

2009-06-11T22:14:00.005+08:00

I really like the way you waved goodbye to me.
I really like talking with you.
I really look forward to seeing you everytime I know I can.
I really like today.

*Change of subject

You better do something about it before I really change my mind and give up, because you know my heart only has space for one person and I'm not ready to give it up for someone else other than you.

I AM DAMN PISSED!! (again)

2009-05-22T23:42:00.001+08:00

ok, im so tempted to start a fucking rant here again, but i shall not.. for YOUR benefit again.. but juz so YOU know, im fucking pissed again now.. thanks..

I AM DAMN PISSED!!

2009-05-20T22:25:00.002+08:00

ok, im so tempted to start a fucking rant here, but i shall not.. for YOUR benefit.. but juz so YOU know, im fucking pissed now.. thanks..

SPNS 09 Leg2 2nd Runner-up..

2009-05-18T22:05:00.014+08:00

whoooo~~ We Contract Killers got 3rd place in SPNS leg 3, which was yesterday.. (: not bad la, but could hv gotten 2nd though.. juz got unlucky for our semi-finals fixture.. but yeah, Leg1 silver, Leg2 bronze.. i think i played quite well though.. but not quite well enough.. nvm.. heh.. (: yup, anyway there's video of us playing a match, but i cant upload it here cos blogger sucks.. but here's the url in facebook, hope u can watch u.. (: here: http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/video/video.php?v=81813569924 (courtesy of ian lee and his handphone..) and pictures coming soon!! Enjoy!! (:

Everything's good.. (:

2009-05-17T22:39:00.002+08:00

im reallyy happy everything's fine now.. (: and i hope u got my msg.. if not, keep reading and reading!! (:

A Bad (not very good) Day

2009-04-17T23:21:00.003+08:00

hi everyone.. juz some rants here..

Rant 1:
wtf man... know wat? i skipped my class outing.. after which i realised i had to work.. so i spent ALOT of my effort, as well as getting myself very much anxious, trying to get a replacement.. when i finally got one, i was super relieved.. however, this relief didnt last long.. at 9am in the morning today, *RING RING.. guess who?? my dear boss!! whooo~~ -_- why? kinda told me off.. for wat? cos apparently my replacement had to work another job outside, hence not being able to work at RD, in other words replace me.. so he said next time i have to check if my replacement can work or not.. (at least he was quite nice..) wth man!!! she said she could work and replace me la!! bloody hell.. like tat also my fault ah?!?! cannot replace then tell me can.. idiot.. ok nvm, so no work today lor, good.. oh ya, i haven explained.. all this ah, is cos im going out with her ok.. (or rather supposed to, nvm im coming to tat part..) ya, so cancelling all my plans to make room for my toppest priority.. so ya, no work today.. blabla.. now's the best part!! after all this crap, she calls me at 11.35am and says she's sick, cant go out!!! omg, im like: oh yeah tats damn cool la.. (anyway, im not blaming u or anything ok, pls pls don get me wrong.. im juz pissed at the flow and turn of events.. really..) oh ya, so wat in the end?? nth lor, no plans at all, nth to do at home liao lor.. win alr... whooo~~ -_- ok, i think rant's over..

ps. Get well soon my dear.. ):
and im neither scary nor violent!!! ):

Rant 2:
this is gonna be short.. cos im not gonna elaborate much.. basically, i stumbled upon sth im very very sure im not supposed to see.. and omg, im really like WTF!!! i really cant believe u guys do/did such stuff la!! alright alright, to put this in ONE word, im traumatised.. im serious... dead serious.. ok, think this's done too..

haiz.. all in a day.. damn cool right?? -_- hence the slight emo syndrome in the day but slightly better after the nap in the car on the way to dinner.. haiz.. and thanks to my dear ondrea for those sweet words and compliments tat really made my day/night (wdv).. (: alright alright.. fuck it.. im gonna stop writing here.. wtf man.. -_- im kinda starting to get pissed again..

I WANT THIS!!

2009-04-07T22:19:00.007+08:00

I SO WANT THIS!!! SOMEONE PLS BUY THIS FOR ME!! its abt $2500.. pretty prettyyy please get this for me.. ):

hmmm...

2009-03-27T00:49:00.001+08:00

i dunno why, but im feeling a lil weird abt this.. seriously, i really do.. is it juz me or is it you? ah wdv nvm..

Randomo..

2009-03-16T00:02:00.010+08:00

hello everyone!! decided to do a short post today!! haha.. hmmm, all in a nutshell, all's been great for me.. (:

oh yeah, i've decided to start takin my driving license once my bday is over.. i'll chiong ah!! heh.. cos i promised SOMEONE tat i'll drive her around.. u shld know who u are u idiot.. (: hmmm, and i'll try gettin my parents to pay for me!! whooo~~ hahaha..

next up on Aaron's News, the next SPNS leg, Leg 2, will be on 17 May 09 at pasir ris park!! pls come and support me!! whooo~~ oh, for those who're wondering, SPNS stands for Singapore Paintball Novice Series.. ya.. (: don want support also nvm, juz come and hv a look and see wat paintball is all abt!! (: heh..

also, the plans for SP paintball club are all going well, quite smoothly.. the response so far is quite good.. looking forward to CCA Drive, where i can really get ppl and get going.. hope to really get started by May09 and get Team SP in for SPNS Leg 4 latest.. (: any sponsors willing to sponsor SP paintball club, pls pls contact me.. thanks!! (:

alright, now for the weather news.. storms are expected in the west.. ok nonsense.. XD

ok la, i think tats kinda all.. wasnt really tat short la, ah nvm wdv.. (: oh, i hv a picture for everyone!! er, it really ruins my reputation, but oh well nvm la.. (: here!!

anna titled it 'Brotherhood'.. haha!! okok, im done here.. this is Aaron from Aaron's News, signing off.. (: bye!!

Untitled...

2009-02-28T00:04:00.005+08:00

Do you even remember this?

Am i gettting better or lousier?

2009-02-23T23:34:00.018+08:00

hello everyone.. skirmished on 21feb09.. wasnt really on form.. ): think im starting to suck.. i must work on my fundamentals!!

Now wat was tat?!?! the chicken wing!!! v bad technique.. -.-

now at least this doesnt look too bad.. i must train harder and more!! (:

yeah, this's me preparing.. (:

Tats all for now i guess.. juz some small update of wat i've been doin in life.. PAINTBALL!! XD (now tats not boring ok amanda!!) alright, i'll blog again soon, maybe.. (: hv a nice day/week/holiday, wdv.. (: cheers!

The Wolf.

SPNS 09 Leg1 1st Runner-up!! (:

2009-02-09T22:16:00.014+08:00

group photo

Team Contract Killers

hey everyone!!

juz a short post abt my paintball tournament last sunday, 1feb09.. it was great.. 9teams were playing.. weather was great.. ok, cut the story short.. my team, Team Contract Killers, got 2nd place!! whooo~~ we're like damn pro la.. but yeah, there were ups and downs during the tourney.. played well and bad at times.. but through it all, we emerged victorious.. rock on team!! KILL!!! (: oh, and some pictures.. scroll down!! (:

me shooting

breakout

prize presentation

I want win !

2009-02-01T23:06:00.002+08:00

HIHI, JOREAN HERE.

Aarontan, there's vball competition tomorrow with Hai Sing. I wana win your schoooooool ! >;D Hope your schoool lose manzsx, lol. Okay lah, we shall see the result okay. Sms/Msn/Tag you the results tomorrow alrights. (:

Nights,

Happy CNY!!

2009-01-29T13:34:00.002+08:00

ok, this's a lil late.. heh.. but, happy CNY!! (: alright, recession didnt hit me tat bad, stil got $300+ la.. heh.. (: but of course, technically i no money liao la..
1. SPNS paints- $150
2. Dye C9 pants- $150

so no more money!! whooo~~ heh.. oh, and i'll be getting my knee pads tmr!! XD and yeah, SPNS Leg 1 is juz a few days away.. jia you jia you!! i'll prob post some pictures of it soon.. (: KILL!!!
and tzuhsien ahh, first say ure my girlfren then now say ure my father.. -_- which one u want?? hahaha.. (:
alright, don want say anymore.. take care everyone!! (:

The RNC

2009-01-26T02:42:00.002+08:00

HELLLLLLLLLO ! (:

AaronTan's Father here. Hi everyone ! Okay, so lame. Rean here luh. You know why i'm here? Cause AaronTan damn noisy, keep asking me to help him update his yellow&black blog. His blogskin not nice horzsx? Haha, to me luh. xD I'm here to write good points about AARONTAN. Very stupid right? Haha, but what to do? He forced me to write one what, so what can i do right? Seee, i so goood to him. Help him update his blog & write good points of him. Difficult to find this type of people in the world already you know mah, AARONTAN ! Must be hounoured k. (: K shall start writing about his good points. (some anyhow bomb) LaughOutLoud*

1. Kind.
2. Caring.
3. Thoughtful.
4. Handsome. (LOL MANZSX !)
5. "GOOOOOOD".
6. Funny & Lame.

I don't know already. Some i anyhow bomb. Hehezsx, but at least i got write hor. Don't be so .... what k, idiot ! Wahlao, i really damn good lor, my own blog i also haven update still come update this moron's blog. I'm way too good already. Rofl ! It's the fact lah, please. K lah, shall end here.

Anyway, HAPPY 牛 YEAR ! ^^

Gooooodbye !

Loovvvves !

2009-01-22T23:34:00.002+08:00

Eh, AT ! Don't angry lahzsx, i tomorrow really cannot go mah, cause got apointment le. Sorry ! Don't angry lei ! Don't so xiaoqi, i PROMISE you i will go out with you one fine day one kay.

No Worries !

LUV !

New Year Resolutions!! (:

2009-01-20T16:37:00.007+08:00

Hey everyone.. i know its kinda late for resolutions now.. but well, kinda nth to do now.. so pen my thoughts lor.. (: oh, got different categories wan hor.. (:

Paintball
-Champion for SPNS leg 1
-Top 3 overall for SPNS 09
-Play one leg for MPOC 09
-Get my electronic marker by this year!! specifically, get my marker by april and the rest by june (:
-Get much more gear!! (whooo~~)
-Be a much better player than I am now

Music
-Get my Diploma in Music Performance by this year
-Learn a new instrument? bass?
-Woo a girl by playing the piano (haha!!) (so this's linked to another resolution: get a girlfriend!! :P)
-Play in a concerto? O_o

School
-Get a consistent above-3.0 GPA.. (:
-Study hard (duh?)

Church/Ministry
-Get to a higher level in minstry, eg MM?
-Grow deeper in Christ
-Be spiritually stronger
-Bring ppl to Christ!!

alright, i think tats kinda all la, basically.. haha.. oh yeah guys, im having my SPNS (Singapore Paintball Novice Series) leg 1 on 1feb09, do give me support!! and im currently applyin for a part-time job, robotics trainer.. pray tat i get it!! its sth like $35 an hour.. XD whoo~~ heh.. ok, im going off now.. bye!! oh, and thanks tzuhsien for the previous post!! love you!! (:

The RNC.

2009-01-18T23:38:00.003+08:00

Hello ! AaronTan's girlfriend here. Rofl, nolahzsx just kidding. I'm his ... , you know? He need me in his life ! (: AaronTan's blog is damn dead lah, so i'm here to update for him. So kind of me right? Smile with teeths*

AARONTAN : See i so good right? Help you. I know alot of people waiting for you to update one lor, so good of me manzsx. Lol.

AARONTAN IS AN IDIOT, but he's still good okay. Hehe, i'm gonna update his blog from now onwards if i'm free k.

SEEEEEYAH ! (:

Your truly,

xoxo. ♥

a small appetitizer..

2008-12-18T23:32:00.003+08:00

hi.. i know im supp to blog.. but kinda lazy.. so i juz blog shortshort one here la.. life's great la.. almost everything's great la.. but im startin to think of u again.. haiz.. nvm.. oh, i love camp committee man.. heh.. and oh, paintball rocks my life!! and i really cant believe i turned down the invitation to RD's staff retreat.. travel, accomodation and paintball expenses fully paid.. IM NOT GOING!! and why? cos i hv full dress rehearsal for BCM christmas musical.. haiz.. aiya wdv nvm la.. it'll be good.. goodnight..

The RNC.

my blog is not dead!!! (:

2008-11-07T11:03:00.003+08:00

okok.. i hv received many complaints abt my apparently 'dead' blog, so since im in sch now and i hv nth to do, i shall blog again!! sumarise my life so far. since like, sept?? omg.. heh.. (: enjoy!!
Life:
life has been great for me.. sch has started alr, now's the 4th week i think.. teachers not bad, only some are idiots. (like the one teaching me now.. pss autoCAD!!) modules are quite easy, almost all hv no exams, juz ICAs and tests, which is great.. don need study so much.. hmmm.. im juz a lil worried abt my autoCAD, teacher sucks and i dunno wat to do.. heh.. i gotta get at least only As and Bs.. due to a deal me and my dad agreed on.. (: hmmm, yeah.. guess tats abt all i hv to say abt life..
BJJ/Martial arts:
hmmm.. haven been going to trainin for quite some time alr.. really considering juz going for mon's class at SP.. no money and no time la.. dunnoo.. oh, im doin Jeet Kune Do now too.. for 7weeks.. sports elective.. quite fun la.. heh.. right..
Music:
takin my Diploma in Music Performance now.. quite fun la.. heh.. (: anyway, my parents gettin me a baby grand piano for christmas!! whooo!!! cool right!! gonna go see later!! and maybe tmr too.. those hand itchy want come play wan tell me hor.. i MIGHT let u test test.. (: oh, and the 'student' i accompanied for his violin exam did v well!! 3marks from distinction.. but but!! his aural got 17/18!! v good!! keep it up!! XD heh.. and lastly, im playin bass for this year's BCM christmas outreach musical.. (: i must jiayou ahh!!
Work:
work has been great!! workin at Red Dynasty Paintball Park now.. ask me wat i work as? hmmm, i shall say facilitator.. cant think of a better description.. yeah.. ppl are great, work's great.. juz great la ok??
Paintball:
paintball!!! haven played for some time liao.. ): juz bought my harness, NXe Eclipse 4+3+2, and 4 Proto pods.. heh.. $155 total lor!! but its great la.. haven tested it on the field yet.. soon la.. (: oh, and im tentatively in Carnage.. not confirmed yet.. and and, im gonna get my electronic marker by next mar (most probably).. Proto Matrix Rail 09!! must save like $100 every month.. any sponsors pls contact me!! (: im waitin for Dye C9 jersey to come out, i'll probably get the urban camo one.. hmmm yeah.. hope to play soon!! XD

hmmm. guess tats all i gotta say for now la.. quite a long post sia.. so anything else u wanna know, ask me!!

The RNC.

im back!! (:

2008-08-31T22:13:00.003+08:00

hey everyone.. juz gonna post a short one.. (hopefully..) yeah..
yesterday was my BJJ tournament.. got a bronze.. but there were only 5ppl.. but i think tats till sth to be a lil proud of.. heh.. yeah.. cristiano was quite proud of me i guess.. didnt really talk to sul yet.. but i think he shld be too.. anywayy my opponent too strong alr la, adult lehh.. nvm.. heh.. and thanks to joel, ken and el for ur support!! (:
from now onwards, we've split/multiplied our cell group.. so now there're two cells.. haiz.. no more joel and el liao.. ): but oh well, we'll juz adapt.. and this sun is family day!! going to wild wild wet!! (:
and, i would today's quite a good day.. she smiled at me today.. (: and stuff.. nvm.. (: i still love her.. dear if u ever read this, juz wanna tell u tat i stil love you.. (: imy too.. ):
alright, cant really think of anything else to blog liao la.. oh, its the holidays now!! 6weeks!! (: see y'all!!

The RNC.

Help!!!

2008-08-20T17:27:00.002+08:00

wa.. all the exams are here now.. studying now actually, but cant get anything.. cos its Materials!!! wat to study?!?!?!?! juz got this feeling tat i'll fail Materials.. ): haiz.. i might be failing Thermofluids though.. wdv nvm.. jia you jia you!!!! Roarrrr!!!!

Random-ing again..

2008-08-14T22:59:00.004+08:00

this is the picture joel drew for me!! nice right?? (: heh.. joel, now ure famous.. (:

blogging again.. juz wanna talk some stuff.. heh..

went for my hospital appointments yesterday at Tan Tock Seng hospital.. one for my hearing and one for my elbow.. haiz.. basically, i juz wanna say polyclinic and hospital doctors suck!! i now believe in private doctors.. (: wanna know why then ask me, i don wanna type out here.. heh.. anyway, im now chiong-ing treatment.. going for physiotherapy this mon, this is the REAL deal.. not going to hospitals.. (oh ya, i was not gonna say anything here..) yeah, so i'll be going for physio, maybe going for abt 4sessions?? juz nice before my competition.. shld be ok by then.. and its really getting closer!!! train hard!! (:

and i really envy those ppl who hv really close frens.. not tat i don hv any, but juz do la.. heh.. hai nvm.. (:

exams are getting close!! too close!! must chiong ah!!! roarrr!! (:

alright, think i got nth to say liao.. heh.. wdv nvm.. (: goodnight!!

The RNC.

time to blog again..

2008-08-11T23:10:00.003+08:00

hmmm i guess im supposed to blog.. i don really feel like blogging now, but i haven updated for so long.. heh..
firstly, i wanna say sth.. I LOVE TZUHSIEN!!! <333 haha.. yeah, my pretty meii.. she's really v sweet.. nvm.. (:
secondly, my BJJ tourney's getting nearer and nearer.. really trainin hard now.. (:
thirdly, my birthday celebration was really great.. with ppl spending time together with me till the end of my birthday.. and yeah of course, the main highlight wasnt the BBQ etc, it was the behind the scenes celebration only for special invited ppl.. (: had a great time eh guys?? oh, and thanks for the presents u all!! and thanks joel for the drawing!! (:
fourth, i dunno wat else to say. oh, my exams are coming, must study real hard liao..
and hmmm after some thinkin, i realised tat im really lookin to u guys (my cell etc.) for frenship, love etc bla bla.. cos in poly, or rather currently, im not close to any of my classmates.. its more like a hi bye, u wanna eat, and eh how to do this ah relationship.. nothing close and personal. if i ever got any problems i wont tell them.. will tell u guys.. seriously.. oh, and so don blame me if im getting closer to u rapidly hor.. (esp. joel..) (: yeah.. wdv.. heh..
and and.. sept holidays are coming!! i alr planned to go out with my dear tzuhsien and my bestfren xin ying.. u all better don pangseh me hor!! and of course, train more frequently!! (:
and one more thing, im going for my hospital appointments this wed, super brought forward thanks to Stephen!! (:
alright, think tats all i wanna say for now.. (: goodnight!!

The RNC.

Never letting you go my dear..

2008-07-28T23:15:00.005+08:00

wow.. its been so long.. dunno how to say this but.. really suprised u called me.. was kinda expecting/dreaming/fantasizing u'll call me after the msg, and u really did.. (: so great to hear ur voice again.. (ur voice changed though, but i like ur new voice..) really cherished tat short talk/conversation we had, since we cant really talk and haven talked for such a long time.. oh, and i really loved the last three words u said before sayin bye.. (: i really wish we could hv talked longer.. or even forever.. wdv nvm.. bla bla.. oh and anyway, i think my previous post sounds kinda negative, its not, its supp to be kinda positive la.. ah nvm..
i love you.. always and forever..
and i know it'll be a long long time before i hear ur beautiful voice again..

The RNC.

Untitled..

2008-07-28T15:14:00.003+08:00

hmmm.. so u stil do care for me huh? sms-ing me to ask abt my elbow.. im really surprised, seriously.. its been so so long since i heard from u.. and er, im really sorry tat i didnt see ur msg earlier, tats why i replied late.. its too late, don think u'll reply me.. but i really hope u will la.. i really do.. ): pls do.. now i cant sleep.. tats how u always make me feel.. i love you darling.. and yeah, im stil waitin for u.. really.. juz those few more years dear..
fine, im kinda emo-ing now.. ah wdv nvm.. anywayy, lesson was cancelled last min today, meanin i had no lesson at all today!! which also means i went to sch for nothing (technically)!! waste my time lor, idiot sia.. go all the way to sch only to find out lesson cancelled.. haiz.. at least i hv BJJ today lor.. if not i'll be really super pissed.. haha.. right.. guess i'll juz go emo by myself now.. blog again later or sth la..

The RNC.

Hey YO!! (:

2008-07-26T22:05:00.003+08:00

hey guys.. im blogging again.. (: know y'all been missin me.. right right?? haha.. right, lets get down to work..
-service prac today.. woke up quite late, at 11.25am when service prac was at 11.30am!!! wa die die!! nvm.. told them i'll be late.. so reached there at 12.30pm.. heh.. so practice practice, abt 45min or so.. oh, im playin guitar.. quite nice songs chosen la.. right.. so after tat.. went for BJJ lor.. was walkin with Matt and Audrey.. then suddenly Matt made a turn and said bye?!?! tat left me with Audrey.. i was like kinda WTH!! but nvm abt tat.. (but it was quite awkward, NVM!!) to cut the story short, i started to talk to her and we talked all the way till i dropped off at Lavender.. had quite a nice talk with her la.. or rather, my first real conversation with her.. real cool.. haha.. cool man.. (:
-yeah.. BJJ was great today.. back to basics again!! whee.. really liked today's lesson.. thanks Steve again!! he coached today's lesson.. dunno why, but he did, with a lil of Kon here and there.. (: im becomin real good ok!! nvm, we'll see results at the BJJ tourney on Aug 30!! thhe little monster awakes!! roarrr!!! next trainin: mon at SP.. yaHOO!!! (: and my Marcelo's downloading again!! yesss!! (:
-then after tat my parents came to fetch me and we went to Carrefour to buy some stuff.. yeah.. oh, i went to GNC, saw some stuff im interested in.. and there's quite a huge discount now, but its only until the end of this month. so i hope i get my money real quick and get them before its too late!! rarrr!! really impt to me i guess.. hope hope hope.. (: heh..
-oh yeah, tmr there's someone comin to view (and maybe buy) my drums.. so do pray and wish me all the best.. hope tat guy will buy it.. then i got money liao!! whee... can buy my stuff liao.. (:
-and and, one more thing.. had my first practice session with Adriel yesterday, was quite good la.. he's not bad though.. (: good for me, and good for him.. heh.. bla bla..
-alright, think i'll stop here.. (: take care all of u.. goodnight world!! (:

The RNC.

Never Back Down!!!

2008-07-24T16:50:00.002+08:00

hey everyone.. juz finished gym a while ago.. now sitting at the poolside slacking.. oh, and i really love my chocolate shake.. (: haha.. was kinda plannin to study after gym, but decided not to.. need to relax wan u know? heh.. i think i'll study tmr or sth la.. 1-dimensional arrays are crap!! gotta work on it man.. :x
and yes, i've decided to fight the Aug BJJ competition.. obviously White belt novice.. BUT on some conditions, its on Sat and not too late.. Then i'll confirm go fight.. and i hope SP can subsidise some of it man.. if not must pay $60 lehh.. crazy.. oh, and spectators hv to pay like $5?!?! wth sia.. nvm.. if my selected supporters don wanna pay, i'll pay for u guys.. serious.. (: my game plan?? dream on la.. i wont post it here lor.. :P
oh, and some idiots today went to watch a movie (Dark Knight, u all know who u are..) without askin me along.. u all good, v good.. nvm wan.. i'll rmb..
later there's bible emphasis, going for tat.. inner life by Benny Ho.. yeah..
oh!! wa.. yesterday, i almost missed BJJ trainin sia.. overslept my nap, woke up at 8.30pm.. actually didnt wanna go liao, but after some calculations, i decided to go.. so i chiong to Budo.. missed out on the teachings, but juz in time for rolling.. so yeah.. but i learned some great stuff.. thanks a lot Steve!! really appreciate it.. (:
hmmm.. yeah i guess tats all for now.. shall cont slackin now.. (: see ya guys..

Never Backing Down,
The RNC.

random thoughts...

2008-07-21T23:10:00.003+08:00

hey everyone.. i shall blog a short post.. (:
firstly, i'll most probably be fighting the BJJ competition in end Aug.. its $60 lehh... i guess i'll hv to pay tat myself again.. ): my parents confirm wont wanna sponsor me lor.. my dad wasnt even keen on letting me join the comp.. so stupid.. say wat join only for hobby bla bla.. when i first joined, one word was in my mind: COMPETITION.. sorry, but im a competitive person.. then after tat he continued talkin.. bla bla.. then said wat later i fight with some crazy guy, then get injured bla bla bla.. -_- then i juz spoke 4words, and he had nth to say.. i said: "don be paranoid la" so lame lor.. so anyway i'l be takin part.. those specially picked by me to come support me, details coming soon.. hang on!! (:
secondly, i saw this super pretty girl on the mrt on my way home today ok!! from SRJC wan.. wa lao ehh.. super lor.. super hot too.. hers legs were like WOO!! v nice.. (: ehh, let me tell u sth.. (xin ying i know ure waitin for this..) she was wearin FBT shorts which was quite short.. so at a point of time, she bent down to arrange some stuff la.. so to cut the story short, i saw a lil of her butt la.. as in not her butt crack or anything, but her butt cheeks u know?? ah nvm.. super!! WOW!! (: ok fine.. enough of this.. haha..
hmmm.. i guess tats all for now la.. oh, give me one month and u'll see a diff Aaron.. u'll see a super muscular and strong Aaron.. heh.. (: ok im going now!! goodnight world.. (:

The RNC.

F$%King rude ppl..

2008-07-18T13:20:00.002+08:00

i freaking hate rude ppl ok!! wa lao ehh.. (anyway when i was drafting this post in my head, it was full of vulgarities. but being nice i decided to do away with them..) i juz reached home from sch.. on the way back on the mrt.. i met some stupid ppl.. i was sitting down with a vacant seat beside me on the left.. when i reached i forgot which station, this 3ppl came onboard.. one was a kinda lame man, one was his wife or sth and the other was the maid(i shall keep the maid out of the story, she isnt really involved..). yeah oh when i saw the lame man i stood up to let him sit down la.. ok basically, not only did none of them say a word of thanks but the stupid man still bang me sia.. @#$%^ then after tat, 2caucasians came onboard.. then the stupid fucking wife of his (which is the main person im pissed with..) started to suck up to them, started talkin to them.. wa suddenly got manners liao lehh, interesting hor.. but i could see the caucasians didnt really understand a word she was saying and tat they were juz entertainin her.. keep talkin keep talkin.. super noisy lor.. !@#$ her la cb..
anyway sch was ok today, lecture ended at 9am instead of 10.. and practical ended at 11am instead of 12.. so decided to come home early.. there sth abt drum buyers, but i decided not to talk abt it la.. heh..
and wed!! BJJ trainin rocked man!! woots!! one of my main highlights was tat i tapped out Mel with a guillotine.. think i improved sia.. but im thinkin she was juz tired la i guess.. heh.. but i stil improved!! talked to Hong Jie for some time, i haven talked to him for some time liao.. hmmm yeah i guess tats all.. oh yeah, im thinkin if i shld take part in the Aug BJJ competition.. hmm..
and yes, i did my last few hours of CIP before tat.. went to grace haven for Birthday from The Heart.. quite an interesting place.. its a halfway house.. for juveniles etc.. so lookin at the variety of ppl there, from pri sch kids to teenagers like me, one can see the 'dark' society of singapore.. nvm.. basically, the younger children there are mostly abused by their parents etc, and the teenagers/youths are juveniles la, sentenced to probation there for a certain period of time.. btw, i saw some ppl i recognised lor.. haiz.. nvm..
hmm i guess tats all i gotta say for now.. see y'all!! (:

The RNC.

I've decided.. im quitting..

2008-07-15T22:33:00.004+08:00

hey everyone.. im back.. (: it wasnt v long though.. ah nvm.. anyway i shall talk abt my title first.. as u can read, im quitting!! quit wat? good question.. im quitting track alr.. many reasons of which i shall juz state one common one: no time.. (psss some other reasons can be found on my blog..) ya.. so no more track for me.. sorry guys.. and all the best for Poly50 and all ur other meets.. (: so now u ask, so i hv no more cca?? na, i've joined another cca alr.. i alw hv plans wan, i don go into action without a plan.. so i quit with another cca in mind.. heh.. i joined SP's BJJ alr la.. so basically im trainin 3times a week, cool right?? im so gonna get my blue belt by dec2009!! (: and thanks for those compliments/comments u guys made yesterday in the toilet, it really encouraged me.. like john said: wa this guy has been trainin for v long alr.. i went: huh?? no wad, i told u tat time i only trained for3months.. then joel 'chap' in: he only trained for 3months.. but he's good for someone who trained this short. john: yeah, he's quite good. i thought he trained for v long alr.. sth like tat la.. alright man!! im so motivated now!! roarrr!!!
oh, i shall say sth abt my F.Math PBL(problem based learning).. those idiots(group members) of mine all put for my evaluation score 3 over 5 lehh.. which means i didnt really do much.. @#$% like u all did alot like tat.. but i hv to say most of u did la.. and S@AF%Q u stil hv the cheek to put my score as 3hor?? all the times i was there, u NEVER did anything.. and anyway guys, do NOT forget the the whole idea for the solution was MINE.. F#Cking idiots.. nvm..
oh yes, today was my c programming practical.. so easy sia.. was the first to finish.. but im quite disappointed tat i took quite a long time, abt 30min.. i ususally take abt 15min only.. but i guess i was checking my program and stuff, so ya its ok la.. heh.. shld be able to get full marks la.. i hope.. (: and i'll most prob be getting my E.Tech results tmr, so wish me all the best.. (:
hmmm.. i think tats all i gotta say for now.. i'll maybe blog again tmr or sth.. gonna call my mistress now.. see y'all!! goodnight!! (:

The RNC.

no title..

2008-07-09T23:22:00.002+08:00

-i feel f#%ked up now.. dunno why, but im quite sure its not a mood swing.. im quite sure its cos i had a bad trainin today, not track but BJJ.. damn freakin bad.. therefore, im now really seriously considering quittin track.. as in quit NOW, not wait anymore.. its really affecting my BJJ, with all tat muscle aches and shin splintS (note the S, i hv it on both legs).. yeah.. someone pls help me!!!
-and anyway, did half of my CIP today. went to yio chu kang area to pack food packages to be distributed to needy families etc.. juz nice, Pasir Ris sec students were also there to do CIP, so i want alone.. it was a great feeling though, helpin out with the stuff.. actually im kinda considering being a volunteer, like going there to help out once a week or so.. then after all the packing, i went to Ang Mo Kio to deliver some presents for a few needy children for their mass monthly birthday party this coming fri.. yeah sth like tat, to summarise everything tat happened.. heh.. so i'll stil hv to complete 4more hours next week for my 8hr CIP.. yup.. and yes, i gotta do/chiong my presentation tonight, cos im presenting tmr.. heh..
-tmr is step-down again!! i might not be going.. seriously.. i really feel like quittin now.. train so f#%king hard, go IVP can win meh?? rubbish lor.. poly50 send 3teams, team1 being the elite.. obviously they win right.. send another 2teams for wadd.. Singapore Open can win ah?? UK Shaym fly away then can win la.. (not to mention Calvin Kang etc..) F#ck la..
-okok wdv.. im not in the mood to blog anymore.. gotta do my presentation anyway.. goodnight everyone..

The RNC.

a long day... (kinda)

2008-07-08T00:11:00.002+08:00

hey everyone.. im back again.. reached home sometime ago.. didnt go for track today, instead i went for BJJ.. had a great time there, trainin and hangin out with the guys after tat.. (i decided not to go for MMA) oh, and i did a helicopter!! (: talkin abt this.. im really thinkin whether i shld quit track or not.. as in now.. first is time and commitment.. then its the passion i hv more for martial arts.. aiya.. if any of u hv any suggestions pls tell me thx.. (:
and my Thermofluids retest was easy man.. was the first to finish, took abt 10-15min only.. i shld hv memorised the formulae the first time round and get high marks rather than take the retest and get only a max of 50%.. haiz.. ah nvm, i've made my decision.. wake up aaron!! chiong ah!!!
and i shall talk abt one more test.. guess?? yeah, my hearing test.. i failed it (again).. yeah.. so its kinda obvious i wont be getting into SYFC anymore.. and i might be going to a specialist for a proper check up.. cos its apparently permanent hearing loss.. yeah..
oh, tmr's my Critical Reasoning Skills presentation, gotta work on it later.. and wish me all the best.. wdv..
Cheryl's runnin tmr.. all the best to u!! get first!! (:
hmmm i cant really think of anything else to say for now.. and i gotta go do some work.. blog again soon.. goodnight world.. (:

The RNC.

super bored.. but im proud of myself..

2008-07-05T20:49:00.002+08:00

heyy everyone.. juz reached home.. heh.. left home in the morning, now then i reach home.. went for service prac, then BJJ then went to watch Hancock with Joe,Sean and Seelan.. quite nice la.. worth watching.. BUT i predicted the story somewhere in the beginnin.. haha.. oh, one part was censored apparently.. -_- censorship board so lame..
BJJ was great.. but today's lesson was kinda boring.. (sorry Kon) we were doing like the same stuff we did during wed trainin, only some new stuff like the arm bar which was quite nice and i kinda liked.. yeah.. and i was chosen to fight the 'exhibition' match, this time with Benny.. it was a great fight.. i lost by points though.. BUT everyone knows he shld hv won by submission instead, having trained so much longer than me and having a blue belt.. im a MONSTER, wat can u do abt it?!?! heh.. so im proud of myself.. (:
now i shall get to the point of being super bored.. my parents hv gone overseas, coming back on mon night.. leaving me all alone.. ): so im super sian now.. BUT because of this, im able to go for MMA trainin this mon, as they wont be home.. (: tats one plus point.. so this mon i'll go for SP BJJ and then for Kreation MMA.. so cool.. (:
oh.. im having my hearing retest this mon.. hope i can pass.. if not i really wont be allowed to fly.. ): wish me all the best!! and yes, got back my Thermofluids results alr.. guess?? haha.. i got 20/100.. heh.. so i'll be havin my retest this mon too.. confirm can wan la.. but its capped at 50%.. wdv..
hmmm.. guess tats all i hv to say for now.. oh, one more thing.. IM SUPER BORED NOW!! haha.. maybe i'll go study BJJ now or sth.. bye world.. (:

The RNC.

Tired...

2008-07-03T23:25:00.002+08:00

booos!! promised i'll blog, so here i am.. heh..
-super tired now.. ok fine, not really super la.. trainin today was tiring.. step down from 400m, for poly50.. ah wdv.. yeah, hope i get into a poly50 team la.. (: wish me all the best..
-and yeah.. got another of my results back: got 85 for my Fundamental Maths.. kinda disappointed but oh well, watch out for me at the sem exam.. (: tmr i'll be getting my Thermofluids results.. hope i don fail.. *sobs.. think i will.. ): nvm.. watch out for me at the sem exam too.. (:
-and its the Nationals now!! wish all athletics taking part all the best, especially Cheryl and Phoebe (think she's takin part..).. yeah.. jia you!! (: and im happy tat Cheryl's leg is ok alr..
-i think im gonna start playin America's Army again.. heh.. downloading it right now.. oh, and Never Back Now is quite nice if u like fights.. (like me..) haha.. my favourite line from the show: Wat can u do abt it?!?! (: heh..
-alright.. im gonna stop here i guess.. sleepin soon.. CNS fatigue liao.. alright, goodnight world.. (:

The RNC.

finally..

2008-07-01T21:54:00.002+08:00

hey everyone.. yeah, im back to my blog.. not gonna be v long, juz gonna summarise my life so far cos i hv to study for my MSTs tmr after bloggin.. haha.. talkin abt MST, im gonna sit for my Foundation Math test & Electrical Technology test tmr.. so wish me all the best!! (: ok, summarising from church camp..
-church camp was generally ok, though it ruined MANY of my plans.. but i really loved the HTHTs i had with my dearest jie and KEN LOK!! heh.. really bonded with u guys.. (: oh oh, HTHT means heart-to-heart-talk.. haha.. oh yes, i skipped quite a few services cos i was sleepin?? :P or rather overslept.. but actually i juz didnt wanna get up la.. XD heh.. so yeah.. i jogged the first morning, planned to jog to Sunway Lagoon the second mornin but didnt cos why? I WAS SLEEPIN.. heh.. and shoppin was quite nice, despite the fact tat SOME PPL pangseh me.. bought my Nike tights which are great.. oh yes, and there was the prank on the childish person who became so angry tat my dear ken had to slp in my room for the night.. hmmm i guess tats all i think? and after the camp i went up to Klang with the team.. (next paragraph)
-so i went to the orphanage in Klang owned by Pastor Rachel's brother.. went there for abt 3days.. nth much to say.. except tat all the kids hv grown up!! feels great.. (: went to eat ba kut teh again, but its a diff one, but stil quite nice la.. bought the spices back, waitin for someone to cook for me, hopefully will be nice la.. heh.. on the night before i left/mornin i left i kinda cried.. ah nvm.. (: i went back myself btw, cos i had my WINGS meet on sat.. (u can see the @#%#$@ post abt it in the previous post.. tats all abt Klang, now back to Singapore!!
-my.wings.meet.was.screwed.up. so i shant talk abt it.. juz give me credit for not falling down and also stayin on my own lane.. ok next!!
-hmmm.. now i shall juz randomise my thoughts.. i got my first BJJ gi!! a mKimonos 10th anniversary gi lehh.. only 100 in the WORLD fyi.. (: i got it from Joe for $170, almost half price.. cool right?? ( might post some pics of it (and me) soon..
-oh yeah some of my results. C Programmin: 79/100 Engineering Materials: 51/100 Critical Reasonin Skills 71/100.. all these are the raw scores, haven added all the other stuff yet..
-i guess this is the final part.. ( i blogged so much!! i need to study!!!) i'll be doing an accompaniment for Auntie Alicia's son Adriel's grade 2 violin exam.. also will be teachin him theory and aural.. yeah.. meetin her this sun to settle some last few admin matters.. cool man.. (: another to my 'resume'.. (:
-okok i really gotta go study now.. i hate this person called Kirchoff!!! :P alright. i'll blog soon..(i said SOON!! soon's generic, so yeah, keep stalkin my blog..) take care all.. cheers and goodnight!!

The RNC.

WINGS screwed up!!!

2008-06-15T00:06:00.002+08:00

@@##$%^@%$#!!! i screwed up my 100m event!! ah stupid @#$%.. ah i'll blog abt this tmr or sth la.. don really feel like talkin abt it now..

Untitled..

2008-06-08T00:49:00.003+08:00

-guess wat?? I MISSED WORSHIP YOU ALONE!!! %*$*^(%*#$ la.. feeling kinda pissed right now.. not tat pissed but pissed.. ah wdv nvm.. but i had a great time at trainin instead.. practicing my block starts.. Coach was quite happy with my starts liao.. hope i can do it next week at the WINGS meet.. heh.. trainin today was quite slack, juz did some drills then started on my block starts liao, then after tat a short cool down jog lor.. then finish!! (i totally forgot abt Worship You Alone la..) sry guys.. ):
-anyway.. tmr im leaving for church camp liao.. oh, im feeling really pissed abt the timing of the camp lor.. as i said in my previous post, its really clashin with some of my plans.. ah nvm.. and im gonna buy tights in Malaysia, shld be cheaper la.. hopefully.. then when im back i'll buy one more i guess, from saucony.. i'll contact them myself or sth la.. roarrr!!!
-and i really need to train in camp man.. or else im screwed at next sat's meet.. heh.. and i feel super tired/weird/down now.. my CNS fatigue liao la i think.. slept quite a bit juz now then woke up.. cos i stil hv things to do!! like u know, pack my bag for the camp.. rarrr!! i really don feel like going for it now.. ): argh!! open mind, aaron... ah.. i think tats all i hv to say for now la.. don really hv the mood to think and blog now.. gotta pack my bag.. see ya all!! (:

The RNC.

Church camp woes..

2008-06-07T00:32:00.003+08:00

-booos!! im back!! trainin today was fun!! enjoyed it man.. and of course, i test-ran my shoes.. perfect sia.. super nice.. haha.. (: im loving it.. but legs quite tired la, icing now.. (: and yes, the WINGS meet is confirmed.. im runnin 100m.. my event at 10.15am lehh, so i probably hv to be there at abt 8am to do my warm-ups etc.. kinda scared sia.. all v pro wan lehh.. then i so noob.. heh.. and somemore i going for my church camp.. which means i cant really train!! rarrr!! only can do like drills and stuff lor.. haiz.. but shld be ok la.. i hope.. must support me!! thx.. (: oh yeah, and my shin splint is stil recovering, but much better liao.. juz a lil more!!
-yeah, and im confirmed doing the SP biathlon liao.. juz signed up today.. can practice my swim during church camp!! yayy... -_- shld be able to finish it.. juz hopin to get a good placing.. (: must support me too!!
-oh.. and i need to get tights.. saucony's comin down next tue or sth to sell us tights.. but guess wat?!?! yeah, i'll be overseas.. SIAN!! guess i'll go down myself or sth when i get back la.. the church camp is really anulling quite alot of my plans, though they're after i planned for the camp.. like my cip, i cant make it.. ah wdv nvm..
-yeah.. i guess tats all i hv to say for now.. as usual, if anything pops into my head i'll blog it.. see ya guys.. and goodnight.. (:

The RNC.